BALANCING BETWEEN MOTHERHOOD, WORK & PASSION!

       I was an outdoor person. I still am, very much. But when you become a mother, all the things, your whole life changes drastically. Of course it's worth the change. But once your child grows up a little, that excitement of a new motherhood fades away & the hard part starts. That hard part is to keep the balance between motherly responsibilities, work and your passion. I was a very relaxed & outdoor kind of person. I never liked the idea of doing a 9 to 5 office job despite being a commerce graduate (My worst academic decision. I could have done so many things which I love now, if I had chosen science or Arts side.) I love everything about nature, animals, adventure, travel. Well, sadly time can't come back. So I locked away all my commerce study back of a mind & entered a mountaineering field after collage. Done mountaineering courses & for almost 10 years worked as an outdoor expert, even after marriage. Thanks to my open minded In-laws. Then came in this world my little precious son. The perfect little child. I am the happiest person to have him. Nothing can take away that happiness from me ever. But then I had to sacrifice my other happiness for a while. For few years. My love for outdoors and adventure. Every new mother have to enter this unknown territory after a child birth. You can't go out for a long time. You can't even think about doing something else except looking after your child. In few months you get so tired physically, running all over behind your toddler, that the excitement starts to fade. It's a reality. Thankfully, My son has all his grandparents in same city. So I have all help & guidance from my parents and In-laws in raising him. My Mother-in-law is so enthusiastic about taking care of the baby that I had to put in very little efforts in his daily routines, till date.

After becoming a Mom, I had to stop doing my outdoor work for few years as it was impossible to leave him alone overnight at home. I didn't even want to part with him for any reason. It left me with only thing, that is to sit at home, look after him & do the household work whole day. I wasn't at all prepared for this kind of situation. I started to get frustrated. I wanted to go out and do something, anything. Their was one good but not so happy option. An Office job. I was hesitant at beginning but at least it allowed me to get out of the house, get some earning of my own & get a confidence that my baby can stay without me for some time. As I couldn't sit in one chair for a whole day, I took a part time job, very nearby my home. Now it's been almost two & half years since I joined. It's quite good job still not as interesting as adventure job. In fact after 20-22 months of job I started to get depressed so badly that for 2-3 days I was so restless in office. I just wanted to quit and go running back to my beloved Himalayas. I even told in the office that I am quitting the job. But then by mutual understanding with my employer, I kept the job and also I was granted as many leaves as I wanted to do my outdoor activities. In between I started to write this Blog as I was quite good at writing. I enjoy writing on random subjects. It gave me relaxation and confidence too. 

       I had this Idea in mind to start my own venture of Himalayan treks and Jungle safaris. But the problem was, my son was still very young and it didn't feel right to leave him behind for so many days. I was suffocating as I had to fight this urge to be in nature. & Here comes the family support. Specially my father-in-law. He is the most supportive person to everyone in my family. My parents and In-laws said "Don't worry about Yuki (My son), Go ahead & do whatever you have in mind. We are happy to take care of our Grandson." Now Yuki often goes to my mom-dad's home and stays with them for 2-3 days. He loves it. Apart from family members, there was unconditional moral support from my two Best friends who were & are always there for me at every step. I decided to start working as a freelance OE. Attended one 6 days adventure camp at Panchgani this June. I felt so great, finally being my old self. I am also organising my own Jungle Safari at Tadoba National Park this December. With friends and family's support my batch got full in no time which boosted my confidence. I am so happy to be finally doing the thing I wanted for very long time. It's a great feeling. Now only thing left to do in near future is to start my Himalayan treks again. It's been almost 6 years since I last visited Himalayas & I crave to see it again. To meet my friends there. I am going to take my son along with me to experience the beauty of jungles and snow clad mountains. He is already an adventurous little guy. He will love mountains. 

     Though it's hard, I am getting hold of my Life better. Now I am successfully balancing Between Motherhood, Work & My Passion. For all working mothers I want to say, "Motherhood & your child are the most precious things in life but also keep your Passion alive. Pursuing your passion or dream is healthy for mind or you will end up in depression. So love your child as well as passion and live your life to the fullest". 


        Cheers to all Mothers!!!